Winston. The same as everyone else or different?

Winston is the main character in the novel 1984. Winston is a small man with a frail figure, he wore blue overalls that were the uniform of the party. Winston's hair is fair and his face is red but his skin is rough. Winston works in the Ministry of Truth and lives in London, which is the 3rd most populous of the providences of Oceania. Winston seems to be a man that keeps to himself and does not want to get into trouble. Winston seems different from the other people around him though, I am not really sure why though. Winston writes in a journal with his own thoughts, which is against the authority "Big Brother." Towards the end of the 3rd chapter, Winston does not seems so concerned with being in trouble with the Thought Ministry, because of the things that he is saying, rather he just wants to express what he feels. This, I believe is what makes Winston different than everyone else in the community. Also, in the first part of the novel we get to see a view of how Winston feels towards "Big brother" and the girl with the brown hair. Winston writes down in his journal "DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER" over and over again, which makes me think that Winston really doesn't like the thought of someone always watching him. Winston also explains his anger towards the girl with the brown hair. I believe that he is angry with her because he can't have her because of the red sash that is around her waist, symbolizing chastity. In these first chapters Winston seems like he is confused to me and he doesn't know what to do. He can't get his thoughts together because his thoughts keep jumping from thing to thing.